TheX Factorjudge writes that although at the time her life looked glamorous, she “felt emotionally battered.”
However, after swallowing the last pill, Brown knew that she had made a mistake, according toThe Sunexcerpt.
“Suicide was not the answer. I had to make my life count. I had to get to a hospital,” she writes in the memoir, according toThe Sun, adding that although her memories from this time are hazy, she remembers “throwing” herself at a jammed door, which left her with visible bruises on her face and shoulder. She writes that those marks that would be visible during anX Factorshow she attended three days later.
After collapsing and going in and out of consciousness, Brown claims in the excerpt that she was transported to the hospital, where she lost consciousness again.
Upon waking up, her eldest daughter Phoenix Chi, now 19, was “furious,” Brown writes, according toThe Sunexcerpt.
“Of all the memories from all those hours, it is the one that still floors me,” Brown says, calling it “the saddest moment of my life.”
While Brown skipped oneX Factorshow following her hospitalization, even though her doctors advised against it, she made the decision to attend a Sunday taping the following day,The Sunreported.
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Mel B and Stephen Belafonte
“I needed all those bruises to be seen,” she writes, adding that she also made an equally powerful choice: to take off her wedding ring, according toThe Sun.
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After10 years of marriage, Brown and Belafonte finalized their divorce in December 2017. The legal separation came nine months after shefiled for divorcethat March.
Also in October 2017, the exes reached an agreement on thedomestic violence portionof their divorce with Brown agreeing to drop the request for atemporary restraining ordershe had filed in April against Belafonte.
If you or someone you know is considering suicide, please contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255).
source: people.com
